Caution ⚠️ from here on I may be describing spiritual experience that goes over lots of heads!
Please don’t let this put you off… instead treat it as a map of the path to intimacy with God.
The Spirit has only one purpose – to bring you with her… to bring you back into the Holy Trinity (God is three persons, Father, Son and Holy Spirit = Trinity)
In fact, the Spirit can’t do anything else but return to the Father and the Son. She’s come to you, started the process of making you hers, but she will want to go back to the Father and to the Son, back home so to speak, it’s where she belongs, and since you now merit her presence she’ll bring you with Her – like being collected by a parent to bring you home!
When this happens it feels like you’re still on earth but with your heart ❤️ and more besides already in Heaven.
For the spiritually advanced this half on earth half in Heaven heart and mind space, this soul space, is quite painful. It’s a longing that the soul realizes can’t be truly fulfilled in this life.
Overall this is how we become God’s possession.
Bear in mind though that at any point along the way you can drive the Spirit away from you (traditionally known as the effect of mortal sin)
Once we’ve made it possible for the Holy Spirit to breach our personal space and provided we remain faithful to the four essentials she begins to melt us and mould us and a new person is formed – St. Paul’s new man or woman – and this new man or woman will always manifest clearly identifiable qualities, characteristics, traits… which are in fact the gifts and the fruits of the Holy Spirit fully developed.
But God won’t leave it there. No, there’ll be other gifts bestowed which will be given primarily to help the recipient bring others to Jesus.
To give some idea of the breath of gifts that God might bestow it is necessary to look to the lives of the saints.
So, as an essential part of preparation for Confirmation I recommend reading at least one of the many written accounts of the life of Padre Pio.
You don’t have to do this now, or pre Confirmation, but at some point in the coming months.